Random Thoughts on A Semi-Stressful Monday Morning

I hate Mondays. I’m not sure when it started but I remember always hating the thought of this day. Except a few years ago when Monday meant Friday because my “weekend” was Tuesday and Wednesday.

Now I just flat out hate this day and I’m way more stressed out today than any other Monday in the past almost two years.

  • I woke up crying at 3:42am (yes, I still remember the exact time because I grabbed my phone the second I opened my eyes) and it fucking sucks.
  • I’m dreading going in to work later tonight and my anxiety level is at its all-time high.
  • Jollibee for breakfast made this morning a little better, though. Chickenjoy + palabok = yum!
  • The girlfriend decided to skip work today for some reason and I’m grateful that she did because I don’t want to be alone with my thoughts right now.
  • She’s making mango shake for me (my favorite!) because she loves me like that.
Photo on 3-12-18 at 10.28 AM
Mango shake + tattoos = ❤
  • I just finished watching the latest episode of Grey’s Anatomy and it sucks that Arizona and April are leaving the show after this season. I’ve been watching this show since I was in 5th grade and ugh, they’re all leaving and it makes me sad. 😢
  • But we’re going to watch Veronica (this Netflix original film that’s supposed to be “the scariest film of all time”) in a bit and I’m fucking excited. It should be a great distraction for a while. Hopefully, it does live up to the great reviews.
  • I have a lot of posts sitting in my Drafts folder but they’re either incomplete or lacking photos (since I’ve been too lazy to take product photos since the beginning of January) and I really need to get off my ass and do something about that.
  • Then there all the post comments that I have yet to reply to. God I suck at interacting with people sometimes!
  • I haven’t finished reading a book in days and I can’t seem to focus on a single book. I keep starting one and then I end up not finishing even just 3 chapters of anything. Ugh, this sucks. I need to get out of my head for a bit.
  • I also cannot stop thinking about New York. I badly want to move there but being broke as fuck doesn’t really give me the option to do so. Fuck.
  • Whatever. I’ll just focus on my room renovation for now.
  • Wait, no, I think I should focus on the impending doom that is about to go down at work tonight. But I honestly don’t want to but I really just want to get the shit over with. Can’t it be next week already?
  • Somebody needs to pull me out of this stress and misery.
  • I need to stop drinking 5 cups of coffee a day because it’s not good for my anxiety.
  • But I can’t help it because #coffeeislife and regardless of my ulcer and hyperacidity, I just could not seem to let this addiction go.
  • Screw you, world.
  • Breathe in, breathe out.

14 comments

  1. Waking up crying is the worst. 😔😔😔 Magigising ka nalang na ang bigat-bigat ng pakiramdam mo. Tapos halo-halo yung feelings. Normally yung pakiramdam ko pag ganon eh yung parang nakalublob ako sa tubig na hanggang leeg. Tapos I’m trying not to sink. Tapos ang hirap huminga. 😣

    But I’m hoping you’re okay na 😊

    (F*ck Mondays! I actually skived off from work last Monday! Lels!)

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  2. You know the first thing that came to my mind when I read that you cried at 3:42 am? I thought “Oh probably PMS.” 😂😂😂 I mean it’s natural to get really emotional when we’re PMSing because our hormones are on full whack.

    Also when I read on your past post that you’re watching Grey’s Anatomy and Criminal Minds, I was like “Yes, girl!” Then I imagined giving you a high five because finally someone who shares my cup of tea. I was actually itching to watch the Grey’s Anatomy from the beginning but then you mentioned everyone’s leaving so … that spoiled it, even though I already knew that two of them are leaving soon.

    I also want to mention your drafts … Oh my goodness you! I am so jealous. I had one draft, yes one draft but I deleted it. So my draft section is totally empty hence the lack of posts. 😅😆

    And lastly, girl I hope you’re doing okay now. Just like I always say, Blame it on the hormones. If you’re really just PMSing. 😄 If not, then just hold on, keep the faith, be more patient and understanding as I’m pretty sure that there are a lot of tuesdays, wednesdays, thursdays, fridays, saturdays and sundays to come. Mondays is just one day in a week, nagpapansin lang talaga siya. 😄😄😄

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    1. It’s not always about PMS. When I wake up crying, it’s 1% of the time about hormones acting crazy. But the rest is just me dealing with my issues. I have depression and severe anxiety problems. It’s not even about the day Monday itself. I don’t hate Monday THAT much. Sure, it’s dreadful as it symbolizes the start of another work week but it’s just that and nothing more. It’s just that I have a lot of mental problems that I deal with on a daily basis.

      And yes! Sorry for spoiling you, though. Hahaha. I just thought that it’s a known fact that a lot of the OG Grey’s Anatomy cast have left the show at some point during the 14 seasons. Lol. You should still watch it from the 1st season. It’s one of my favorite shows of all time! ☺️

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  3. Again, reading your post with a notepad opened so i can simultaneously type my reaction hahaha!

    1. Awww ang sweet that the GF made you mango shake! Also that tatt is dope. Honestly I want to get myself inked, too, but my parents will surely give me a beating for it. Henna muna ako, besh.
    2. I have two blank posts in my Drafts folder with only the titles and nothing more. Haha.
    3. I tend to not approve/reply to any comments until I write a new post. IDK why, it’s not a rule I intentionally set but as it happens, I suck at interacting, too. 😀
    4. Guess what, I’m currently reading the ‘And They Both Diet At The End’ and i’m already halfway through and WHY IS IT MAKING ME THINK ABOUT MY OWN DEATH but I can’t really put it down!?!?!?!?!?!
    5. Why New York? Just curious. 🙂
    6. Oh yeah, how’s the room renovation going on?? Any photos to share??

    And finally — 5 CUPS OF COFFEE OH DEAR.

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    1. Hahahaha. Nabitin nga ko dun sa shake. Yung iba kasi binigay niya sa Mama ko. Kainis. May kahati. Hahaha. You’re 30, woman!!!! Get yourself inked if that’s what you want! :p

      You have TWO BLANK POSTS???? Gurl, I have 64 posts!!!!! Jusko, the horror!!!! But okay, I’m not at least replying to comments so that’s a start. Hahaha

      YOU JUST FINISHED THE BOOK. Although, did you just say… “And they both DIET at the end”???? Hahahaha Odee, eneber! :p

      New York because of the lights, the city, the buildings, the ~feels~. IDK. The hustle and bustle of the people? Parang feeling ko ang saya. But then again, I know it’s going to damn hard to live there but I think it’s worth it!

      Wala pa. About to start with the process this April (hello SSS loan hahaha) kaya same old shit pa rin siya ngayon. :p

      AND YES. I HAD 8 TODAY, ACTUALLY.

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  4. I haate Mondays too. But actually, I just hate going to work more. Payday is life. But the work you have to do that lets you enjoy that bliss called payday, is hell. I hope you’re okay Victoria.

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    1. SAME! If only I can skip Mondays every damn week, I would. But alas, payday is lifer than my grave hatred for Monday. Hahahaha. I’m feeling better, thank you! 😀

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